Ruined

Drenched in my own existence
trying to hide the pain somehow
from myself if not from you.
Everything came crashing upon me
crushing my inside
making my soul burn
Now i stand all alone
with no one by side
to share my scars with.
My smile working in it's own mysterious ways
i used to use it to seem all cool
but now
it's deceiving upon me
making me believe
m nothing
but ruined.