if only

if only you knew

 how i care for you

and how much i love you

i miss you

as i try to find you

in the stars

i see you everywhere

as i miss you being around

and i long for you

and i wonder

will i ever get tired of waiting

and longing

if only u knew

how i want you

to fill up the empty space in my life

when i need someone

just to listen to me

and be with me

i feel helpless

and i want to cry

but i hold back those tears

because tears wont help me get you

all i m left with

is to pretend

i scrunch back

because i don't want to be vulnerable again

no matter how  much i want to talk to you

but i simply wont

because you wont understand

as you never had before

but i cant take it

i just bear it

if only  u knew

how much i want you